“Unless I see the nail marks in his hands and put my finger where the nails were, and put my hand into his side, I will not believe (John 20:25 NIV).
“Put your finger here; see my hands. Reach out your hand and put it into my side. Stop doubting and believe.” John 20:27
Haven’t we all been there? You are convicted that God wants you to go in a certain direction, and you start to move along those lines, then those doubts appear. Am I doing the right thing? Did he really say that? Does that line up with the word?
We doubt our abilities, whether we can succeed, whether we will have the needed resources. But like the scene with Jesus and Thomas, he reassures our doubts with his word.
Here’s how I handle my doubts
When you doubt your purpose seek God’s promises
I am learning that when I feel doubt coming over me I go to the word remind myself of the promises in God’s word in relation to this area. Seek out God’s promises about self doubt and meditate on them until you feel your confidence returning to you. Feast on these words and trust that he will do what his word says.
Surround yourself with others that believe in you and what you are doing so they can be a source of encouragement when doubt starts to creep in. Talk to those around you that will encourage you and not distract you further with their doubts about what you are doing too.
Recall your why
Remind yourself of why you have taken on this task. Have specific goals written down that you can refer to and review them daily. Whether your goal is to encourage women, inspire youth or empower some others. You are doing your part to build the kingdom of God.
Commune with God
Spend some time praying and reconnecting with God. Set aside a specific time of day that you can do this. Whatever works best for you. You can use a devotional along with your Bible and spend time basking in the presence of God. When we remain close to him it helps to keep us in line with his will.
Write down your thoughts
Sometimes I will journal or if the words come to me, I dabble in a little bit of poetry. Anything that helps me clear my mind of my doubts. Here is a little poem I wrote during one such moment.
This horrible gout, come to kill, steal and destroy, that’s the ploy.
All wrapped up like a decoy making you panic like a manic.
Stealing your joy.
Trying to be a silent killer but we know the victor.
Making you wonder, fogging your mind freezing you in time.
Trying to hinder your holy climb.
Working in the sublime, but wait its only a matter of time.
Ignore its self defeating thoughts because at the end of the day it leaves you with nought.
Perish those God forsaken thoughts, shake off the haze and start to give him praise.
One thing for certain because he is risen, self doubt cannot be our prison. He has freed us, redeemed us.